At the crossroad…

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‘Well! What are you?’… ‘I’m an engineer.’

‘Oh yeah so.. What are you?’… ‘I’m a software engineer.’

‘I get it. But, what.. are.. you?’… ‘@##@#%#$^#%&^*%’

It’s the most difficult question to answer isn’t it? What are you? I have been asking this question to myself since a long time now. What am I? What would define me? Yes! I have the answer. My profession. My career. Is it true the the job which you hold defines you? True. Isn’t it? How did we let that happen? Maybe its time to change the trend. Maybe its time for a paradigm shift!

I am a jack of few trades. Yes! Master of none. Striving to be a master of one or many if I’m lucky to live for few additional years. I’m fascinated by many things. I’m fascinated by life. By the nature, by the people, by the arts, by the epics, by the mythology, by history, by science and even by myself. I get attracted to things. I explore them. It excites me. It enthralls me. But where there is storm, comes the calm. But there is another storm and so on..

One after the other, they hit me, leaving me with some precious knowledge at the cost of my days and time. Now I have many such precious boxes. Many! But I have to travel a long distance and with too many baggage to carry. These storms, though I liked the excitement and the thrill, left me stranded at the end. They wouldn’t care for me. They wouldn’t give me my shelter. They wouldn’t give me my delicious bread which I’m longing for. At times, I would feel jealous on people who are very good at something that they are very focused on that one thing and they wouldn’t be distracted by any other. I need my dreams to be with me. I cannot let go of any. I cannot stop playing, cannot stop singing, cannot stop talking, cannot stop travelling, cannot stop aspiring and cannot stop dreaming. They define me! Neither my job nor my profession. But why can’t I make an identity with I like doing? What is stopping me from becoming who I want to rather than becoming who someone else wants to?

1. Society? 2. Environment? 3.Family? 4. My Enemies? 5. My Beloveds?

Huh!!! Nah! IT’S ME! I am stopping myself. Once a great human being said, “What you think, so you become!” I envy the person. That’s the difference between a person who sells fruits in a bus and a person who would sell the same through a supermarket. The difference between a 2 crore businessman and a 100 crore businessman. The difference between Sachin and the rest of the world. The difference between Hitchcock and the others.

Now wait!! What am I? Jack of all trades and a master of none? NEVER! I’m a master of one! I’m the MASTER OF BEING THE JACK OF ALL TRADES! Suddenly I realize that I’ve been trying too hard to hold my ground against those storms. I realize that the storms were meant to help me. They were constantly knocking on my doors, whereas I have been trying to hold my ground so hard.

I cannot stay grounded. I’m meant to fly. Identify your weakness and convert them into your strength. I cannot stay grounded! I must let myself go. Jump off the cliff! You cannot predict where you’d land. That’s that best part of it. The storm would take you somewhere, to some new territory, maybe to my dreams, maybe to a place where I would like it the most.

I will be driven by the storm. I will swirl around with it. I will be blown away from my dilemmas. I will be thrilled and enthralled.

BUT TO WHICH ONE SHOULD I..?